Age Really is Just a Number Ch. 04

Kasey spent Saturday night with me as well as Sunday morning. She’d left my house about 3 to meet her study group. She apologized saying that she probably wouldn’t be at the gym until probably Friday.

“I’m sorry that I can’t make it,” she said as she was packing to leave. “I really want to be there.”

“Baby, no. You need to take care of school first, I understand. That will always come first. The gym will be there when you have time. We’ll get your time in when we can,” I replied. She smiled thinly and walked into my arms when I extended them. We hugged tightly. “It’s going to be okay, baby.”

“I know, I just want to be there. Friday night was amazing. I can’t wait to get back in. I feel awesome being around all of the strong people there,” she said.

“You’re gonna fit in just fine,” I smiled.

“I hope so,” she smiled before we kissed.

—

After the Sunday night workout, Shana stayed behind to help me clean up since Joel had an early flight the next morning. Shana and I talked as we worked, and she kept throwing good natured comments at me about Kasey. Finally, she turned serious.

“You need to get her to stick around,” she said.

“You think she’ll fit in okay,” I asked.

“Yeah, of course she will,” Shana replied with an eye roll. “She’s got a great attitude and she’s already so strong. A year or so with you and Joel, she could be among the strongest girls in the world.”

“Yeah, she could,” I agreed.

“And I liked how you threw around heavier weight the other night than you have in months,” Shana laughed.

“Yeah, maybe so,” I agreed.

“She’ll push me. I need another chick in here since Kate moved to the morning crew. It was always Marsha, Kate and me,” Shana said quietly. “I can’t imagine where I’d be if you all hadn’t saved me.”

“I know Shana,” I replied. I remembered the three of them working together. I felt my emotions getting the best of me as I remembered how Marsha, Joel and I helped Shana from Day 1. She was the first of our “rescues”. She’d lived on the streets for a couple of years and was hooked on heroin when we’d found her near overdose one morning in front of the gym. Marsha, who was a saint through and through, immediately got her help. She told me she wanted to bring her to the gym as she knew it would help Shana, when she finished treatment. Joel and I agreed as we trusted Marsha’s judgement.

I thought back to our first days in the gym with Shana. Everything was so hard for her as she fought through her lingering addiction, as she fought to regain control of her body. A few weeks in, she turned a corner and the mental strength she’d always possessed came out. It was amazing to watch. She took to the training we’d given her, and she worked harder each week. Soon, she was helping others in workouts. It took her longer to get her personal life in order and she stayed with Marsha and I for almost 6 months, before she found a steady job and got on her feet. She moved in with Alicia from the gym, and things finally were going good for Shana.

My mind drifted to Kasey and I immediately thought of what Marsha would think about me “helping” her. It was different than Shana obviously. She was headed towards being statistic when we found her. Kasey, on the other hand, was completely different. She was headed along a much brighter path than Shana had been offered. The thoughts that I was sure I’d put aside returned. Was I helping Kasey with anything beyond making love to her? The only thing she lacked was confidence in her body and she looked like she would melt anytime I complimented her. I was using the wisdom of my years to reassure her and treat her differently than she’d previously known. She’s putty in your hands, I reminded myself ashamedly. I couldn’t keep doing this I thought. I was taking advantage of a young woman that reminded me of my late wife when she was younger. But despite the short time frame and my own doubts, I realized I had strong feelings for her. Telling her I couldn’t see her anymore wouldn’t be easy. I suddenly found myself on the verge of losing it. Shana noticed immediately.

“Whoa, whoa, hey big boy,” Shana said. She wrapped her arms around me, and I hugged her close to me. “I can’t have the strongest, toughest fucker I’ve ever met bawling in front of me. I still need my allusion of a knight in shining armor every now and then.”

“I know you do,” I said as I hugged her ever tighter. “I’ve just got a lot of things going right now. Thanks.”

“No problem,” she said slapping my back. “You all pulled me out of a hole that I never would have left.”

“We tried. And you’ve done well,” I said.

“I’ve tried, Scott. You three were the only people to ever believe in me,” she replied.

“I know honey and I’m sorry, but I’ll always believe in you. No matter what kind of bullshit you get into,” I managed to laugh. We finally parted our embrace.

“I know,” she smiled, before she became somber again. “I can’t imagine it helps that poker oyna she’s Marsha 25 years ago.”

“No, it doesn’t,” I replied as I wiped my face with my shirt sleeve.

“You shouldn’t let that bother you though. She’s into you and you’re into her. Just enjoy it,” Shana said. She reached to hug me again.

“I know honey,” I said as I hugged her tightly.

“I gotta go to work,” she announced.

“Okay, good luck,” I said as I released her.

“It’s better now. The cops have been keeping the rowdier fuckers out,” she laughed.

“That helps,” I managed to smile.

“Oh yeah. Look if you need to talk about things, you know I’m here for you, right,” she asked.

“I know. Thank you,” I said.

“Forget about it. I’ll forever be in you and Marsha’s debt,” she said.

“Don’t look at it that way,” I said.

Shana nodded before she grabbed her things and left.

—

I didn’t text Kasey the next few days as I wanted to make sure she was preparing for her exams and I wanted to have time to think things over. Despite the reassuring conversation with Shana, I’d convinced myself I needed to just let her go. It would be easier now than it ever would. I knew the way I was beginning to feel about her, and I expected that she might be feeling the same things. I made a lot of mental notes about how I needed to approach things and how I needed to say them. Despite my best intentions, all my soul searching, and pre-planning evaporated when she texted me about 2:30 Thursday afternoon.

‘Hey!!! I’m done. I slayed,’ she said.

‘Excellent,’ I typed. ‘You got plans tonight?’

‘Yes. Lots of plans. Most involve us being naked,’ she typed.

‘Okay. I have a few things to finish here. I’ll let you know when I’m free,’ I replied.

Naturally, that wasn’t the end of the conversation. We texted until I left the office at 5. I didn’t know what I had in store for me that evening as I’d received several very sexy pictures throughout the conversation. I wondered how guys her age handled all of this. I thought back to when I was that age and was thankful the technology didn’t exist.

I got home about 5:30 and saw Kasey already sitting in the driveway. When I got out of my truck, she greeted me warmly with kisses.

“I missed you,” she said.

“I’ve missed you as well,” I replied.

“Come on, let’s go inside,” she offered. She grabbed an overnight bag as well as a grocery bag from inside her car. I unlocked the door and we walked in. She dropped her bags and pushed me against the wall.

“Someone is the mood,” I managed to say before her mouth met mine. We kissed ferociously before we finally parted to catch our breath.

“After what you’ve done to me and the way you treated me, I think I’m always gonna be in the mood for you,” she said before she kissed me again just as insistently.

I pulled her towards my bedroom as we continued to exchange ravenous kisses. When we made it to the bed, I pushed her back on it. She fell on her back with her legs spread. Her tight leggings accentuated her mound and I yearned to peel them off her and taste her. She smiled at me wickedly as I looked at her. I moved on top of her and we resumed kissing. My hands roamed her torso which seemed to only be covered by a hoodie and a bra. I pushed up on the hoodie and noticed her bra clasped in the front. I quickly opened it allowing her generous breasts to spill free. I rubbed and kneaded them as I continued to kiss her.

“Oh Scott,” she moaned. “You make me so hot. Making love with you has been all I could think about.”

“I know, me too,” I agreed, even though I’d been doubting our relationship. I moved my hand down across her abdomen and placed it top of her mound. As I cupped her sex through her leggings, I realized she wasn’t wearing panties. I looked at her and smiled.

“I thought you might like that,” she grinned.

“I love it, baby,” I replied. I slipped my hand inside her tight leggings and cupped her bare, wet sex directly. I pushed my middle finger inside and she groaned.

“Oh, that’s good,” she said. My finger twirled around her clit causing her to writhe on the bed. She grabbed my head and kissed me forcefully. “I want you so bad!”

“I want you too, baby,” I said. I stood from the bed and unbuttoned my shirt, while she finished removing her hoodie and bra. She kicked off her sneakers and skinned off her leggings. I looked at her needy wet sex and swiftly knelt before her. She smiled broadly as my mouth closed in on her. I ran my tongue through her wetness, savoring her flavor before moving towards her hard, little clit that peeked out from its hood. I lightly teased it causing her to tense and groan.

“Oh, I’ve been thinking about this constantly,” she said.

“Good,” I replied as my tongue twirled around her hard, little nub. Her hand found the back of my head and she pulled me tightly against her.

“Mmmm, that feels so good,” she groaned. I didn’t answer, I just worked canlı poker oyna on her even more. “You’re not going to have to work too hard if you keep that up!”

“Mmmm,” I groaned as my tongue teased and tormented her love button.

“Oh, Scott. Oh, don’t stop. Didn’t stop,” she panted. I inserted my index and middle fingers in her and began strumming the front wall of vagina. I felt the small lump there and my fingers grazed it in a back and forth motion.

“Oh,” she shrieked. “Right there, right there!!!!”

Just a few more strokes and she erupted. Sensing what was coming, I’d moved back slightly. It was an impressive display to say the least. I gave her perhaps 5 seconds before I resumed. I didn’t bother with my mouth, just continued using my fingers. I kept stimulating her and she experienced perhaps ten orgasms over the following 5 minutes. After the last one, she went limp and any further efforts on my part were futile.

I moved up next to her and pulled her in my arms.

“Can I just lay here and collapse from exhaustion,” she said softly.

“If you want to,” I said.

“I may not have a choice,” she said. “Were you trying to kill me?”

“No, just pleasure you,” I said.

“You did that,” she managed to smile.

“Good,” I smiled back at her. She snuggled closer to me and laid her head on my chest. I held her for a long while and neither of us spoke. Finally, she rolled away slightly and looked up at me.

“Can we have a talk,” she asked.

“Yes, of course,” I smiled. “I hear they’re good for relationships.”

“Yes,” she laughed, but her smile quickly waned. I looked at her closely and asked the obvious.

“What is baby?”

Kasey: It’d been a long 4 days without seeing him. I was busy and with all my effort, I could keep him blocked out by the organic chemistry reactions and physics formulas in my head and focus on studying. That worked during the day, not so much at night while I laid alone in bed. He was absolutely perfect except for that one thing. I tried to remember the feelings I’d had for Aiden. They were nothing compared to the way I felt for Scott and it hadn’t been two weeks. I was getting closer and closer to him with every passing moment. I was falling in love with him. I didn’t know if he felt the same way or not. I’d meant to just tell him face to face that I couldn’t see him anymore, but the minute he pulled up, all my willpower left me. We’d ended up in bed again and it was perfect like every time before. Now I needed to try to do what I’d came for…

“Scott, I don’t know where to begin really. The last few days I’ve just been thinking a lot and I, I don’t know,” she said. I felt my breath hang in my chest at what was coming next. Was she having her own doubts?

“Let’s talk through it, Kasey,” I said. “It’s the only way we can resolve it.” She nodded but she didn’t put any enthusiasm in it.

“I know, it’s just this whole experience has been amazing but you’re still so much older than me. I keep thinking that. I mean I suddenly have this wonderful man in my life, and I can’t even be honest with my friends about you,” she said.

I nodded, “I know baby.”

“It also doesn’t help that I think I’m falling in love with you,” she said. My eyes focused on hers and I could see she was about to cry. “I’m sorry Scott. I thought I could just have fun, but I couldn’t. The way you’ve treated me, everything. It’s been like a dream, but it’s been wrong for me to think that it would be more than what it is. I’ll just have deal to with it,” she said as the tears began to stream down her face.

“Baby, no. You’re not just gonna deal with it. Come over here,” I said, pulling her tightly against me. I stroked her back as she continued to sob. I leaned my head down and kissed the top of her head.

“Kasey, I don’t know how to explain all of this, but I’m going to try. Until you texted me today, I had every intention of breaking things off with you,” I said.

“You did,” she sobbed.

“Yes, I did honey. And I’ll tell you why. I’m having the same feelings that you are and I’m old enough to know better,” I continued.

“I understand,” she said sadly.

“Babe, I’ve just been thinking about it all. I’m falling in love with a girl half my age and there’s no future in it. It’s never going to be easier than now, and I don’t want to hurt you even worse down the road,” I explained.

“I know, but this last week and a half has been amazing. I don’t want it to just end,” she sobbed.

“Me either baby, but we’ve both admitted our doubts,” I replied.

“Yes,” she said. She pulled away from me to reach a tissue box beside the bed. She dabbed her eyes and blew her nose. She sat up next to me and we looked at one another for a long moment. I didn’t want to keep pressing matters, but with her admission of doubts, I knew that we were on the same page together. She reached over and took my hand in hers, before pulling it in her lap.

“Scott, I’ll leave internet casino now if you want,” she said softly.

“You know that’s not what I want, but it’s what we should do,” I said. She nodded softly.

“I don’t want to,” she said defiantly. “I can’t just walk away from you, Scott.”

“I understand baby, but it’s not going to be any easier as our feelings grow for one another,” I reminded her.

“I know it won’t,” she replied. “I’m willing to take my chances.”

I thought about what she said. I needed to ask her though. “Are you sure?”

“Yes, I’m sure Scott. I love you and I want the time I can have with you,” she said, nodding her head.

I knew better, but the thought of her being gone from my life scared me, despite us having known one another such a short time. We would just cross that bridge when we came to it. I reached for her and pulled her to me.

“I love you too, Kasey,” I said. “We’ll enjoy what we can. I’m not too old to love and lose again.”

“I don’t want you to look at it quite like that, but thank you,” she managed to smile. Her lips moved to mine and we shared a soft kiss, followed by another and another. The continued to build and she quickly got on top of me. Our kisses grew in passion and I found myself getting more excited.

“I love you and want you,” she said.

“I love you and want you too, baby,” I agreed. Kasey reached between us, her hips moved, and I was inside her. Now that it was in the open, we both stated our love for one another repeatedly.

“Oh,” she groaned and began moving against me. “It feels so good.”

“Yes, it does,” I said as I reached up to caress her cheek and neck. “You’re so beautiful, Kasey. I love you.”

“I love you too, Scott,” she replied. My hands moved to her breasts and I cupped them as she slowly rode me. I began lightly teasing her nipples and her eyes widened in pleasure.

“You know you drive me crazy when you do that,” she asked.

“Of course, I do,” I smiled.

“Oh, Scott, oh,” she moaned and I felt her gush against me. I continued rubbing her nipples and it was not 30 seconds before it was followed by another and another.

“That’s so beautiful,” I said to her softly.

“Yes, it is. I love that you can reach me like that,” she replied.

“Mmmm, me too,” I said.

“It doesn’t have to be about me all the time,” she said.

“I know it doesn’t, but I love making you feel good,” I said.

“It would make me feel good if you were on top,” she smiled.

“Okay,” I smiled. I arched my back and came down on top of her. I quickly re-entered her and began slowly stroking in and out of her wetness. We kissed passionately before I raised myself up and leaned back on my heels. I brought her shapely legs in front of my shoulders and I began kissing her soft feet.

“Mmmm,” she purred. “I love that.”

“You do, huh,” I asked.

She quickly nodded. I took her left foot in my hands and began kissing her toes. They were painted a sparkling red. Soon, I was sucking them and I could see her eyes widen.

“I never imagined that,” she said. I looked at her intently as my tongue lapped greedily at her little toes all the while, I continued to slowly fuck her. I moved to the right foot and she merely shook her head and she watched me. My right hand moved between us and I lightly rubbed her clit. She closed her eyes and groaned as I gently strummed her most intimate area.

“It’s going to happen again,” she said.

“Good baby,” I replied. “I’m close, too.”

“Mmmm, good. I want you to cum, Scott,” she cooed.

“Uh huh,” I agreed.

“Oh, Scott. Oh, I’m getting close,” she said.

“Don’t wait for me, baby,” I assured her. I increased the intensity of my thrusts and I realized how close I was myself. I rubbed her clit more firmly and her hips bucked off the bed.

“Oh, fuck, Scott,” she growled. That pushed me over the edge, and I began cumming deep inside her wetness. I pushed my cock as deeply as I could inside and her fell forward on top of her, catching myself with my hands. As she caught her breath, she reached for me and we exchanged racking, soul-twisting kisses. We writhed on the bed in the afterglow with me finally pulling her on top of me. Our hands continually touched one another before we finally made eye contact. She smiled softly.

“What,” I asked.

“I think I’m gonna like make up sex with you,” she giggled.

“Me too, but let’s try to keep it to a minimum,” I suggested.

“Yes, please,” she said. “Do you have anything to do tonight?”

“You’re looking at it,” I smiled.

“That’s a nice thought,” she replied.

“Do you,” I asked.

“No, I don’t have class tomorrow. It’s physiology and the professor sent an email saying our exams aren’t ready, so she gave us a pass,” she explained.

“That’s good for you,” I smiled.

“Do you have to work tomorrow,” she asked.

“Baby, that’s the beauty of being self-employed. I never ‘have’ to work, but in order to remain self-employed, I usually do,” I laughed.

“That makes sense,” she smiled.

“Would you like to do something together,” I asked.

“Of course, I would,” she smiled again.