To Dream Among The Stars – Chapter 12

Day 4Contrary to yesterday, I feel reinvigorated this morning. My encounter with Blistas might be for something. I try to push her aside, but the thought of having her hot body against me is too inviting. I finally get out of bed, put my flight suit on, and prepare myself to leave for breakfast. As I have time and I am famished, I get a bowl of cereal with some toasts and coffee. I sit at the long table, eating in silence, thinking about my alien colleague. As I eat, Akari passes through the rec room. She sees me and makes a detour.“Hello you!” she says from across the room, sounding happy. I raise my head from my breakfast, also happy to see her.“Good morning!” I reply.She sits on the chair beside me and kisses me passionately. I return her enthusiasm, hoping that she is feeling better. While we kiss, she puts her hand on my right leg, close to my dick, rubbing me.We part ways and she looks at me seriously before saying, “I heard that you had an encounter with Blistas yesterday?”I freeze, my happiness disappearing instantly, replaced by fear. Oh, shit, what did I do? I never should have let Blistas convince me… Why is she smiling?“You know that you are really easy to play with?” she asks me playfully, smirking at me.I sigh, letting my head fall backward, relief flowing through me. She really got me. “Please, don’t ever do that again,” I reply, lightly laughing out of the tension she created.Akari chuckles while rubbing the interior of my leg. I move my head back upright, looking at her, feeling her hand brushing against my hardening dick.“I know that it is still very new to you, to know that we share intimate times with the others on the ship, that we have an open relationship among us. Blistas asked me yesterday if I thought you were ready. I wasn’t sure, but it was time for you to be made aware. I’m glad that I did, I heard that you were very gentle and that she liked how closer you become with her, moving your friendship forward. I’m really glad that you shared a moment with her yesterday and I hope that you continue exploring.”I sigh loudly, taking deep breaths, slowing down my heartbeat. I collect my thoughts before replying to her, “This feels like a dream and it feels weird that you encourage me to pursue it, that you seem to be happy that I fuck around.”She looks like she wants to reply, but I raise a finger, asking her a moment. I need to tell her something, to reply to what she told me yesterday, that she likes me.“Yesterday, you said that you like me. I also like you, Akari. I never felt such attraction to a woman before, it’s blinding. I want to be careful though, I don’t want us to rush into this. A lot happened in the last few days, so many things that I need to work through. I don’t want to burn us, I don’t want to lose what we are developing. I’ve been in relationships where it was fantastic the first week or month but degraded rapidly after. I don’t want that with us. So, let’s not rush into things, let’s take it one step at a time. I don’t know if you are happy about this arrangement, I just feel that it is the right thing to do right now.”My voice dies down, hoping that I’ve done the right thing.Her expression is unreadable for few seconds until she gives me the most beautiful smile I’ve ever seen. She pushes herself slowly toward me, sitting on me, straddling me, getting closer to me. She puts her left hand behind my head, bringing me to her. We kiss passionately, opening our mouths to each other. We stay like this for few seconds, close, feeling each other, our hands roaming.We finally let each other go. She plays with my hair, I have my hands on her ass, cupping both cheeks. “I think this is perfect. Let’s take it one step at a time,” she simply replies.My heart is beating hard, I’m feeling like I’ve won the lottery, I got the best possible life in the world.Akari continues, “As much as I would like to stay, I need to get back to the bridge. I also think that you are due shortly. So, I’ll let you finish your breakfast and we see each other upstairs?” she suggests.“Definitely, I’ll be on the bridge all day,” I reply, overflowing with happiness.She smiles, gives me a quick kiss, and gets up. She starts to leave, but turns around and tells me, “I was told by Natasha that she invited you for a chat tonight? I’m still not feeling well, take as long as you need with her. She is a good listener, she might be able to help you work through the last few days.” She gives me a wide smile, her eyes sparkling. Before I can reply, she turns toward the stairs and gets to the bridge.Our discussion roams in my head, opening so many possibilities. Emma, Blistas, Leet, bahis şirketleri Bruce. The image of the XO appears in my mind. I quickly remove it, thinking that he’s getting to my head with his jokes. I shake my head, putting my thoughts back in order. I look up at the clock and see that I need to be on the bridge in five minutes. I quickly finish my bowl and the toasts. I get everything cleaned up, refill my mug with coffee and go upstairs.Bruce is there with Akari, Blistas, and Emma. I walk in, heading for my post. “Morning everyone,” I say to the bridge crew.They all wish me a good morning, Bruce adding his usual inappropriate suggestion. I get to my station and start the daily checks. Even though we all have our duties to perform, we chat lightly throughout the day, sharing information, comments on the latest VR films and other trivial subjects. The captain eventually joins us and engages in our conversations. She doesn’t seem to mind, as long as we do our job correctly and efficiently. We also eat our lunch on the bridge, on a little table on the side, so we don’t spill anything on the instruments.It’s very pleasant and the day goes quickly. As my shift ends, I go down to the rec room with Akari. I’m excited as I get to sit beside her, allowing us to tease each other under the table. It’s all good and fun, but I wish that Akari would be in better health, as I would take her to my room and fuck her until she asks for mercy, her teasing heightening my desire for her.As dinner ends, Natasha looks at me, raising her eyebrows, asking me if I’m ready for our discussion. I slightly nod. She nods back and heads downstairs. As I pick up my plate, Akari looks at me, clearly having seen the exchange. She winks at me, gives my dick a quick squeeze with her hand, and leaves the table.I leave my plate in the galley and head for Natasha’s office. Nervous, I lightly knock on the door, it doesn’t take long for her to open the door.“Come in, make yourself comfortable,” she says, pointing toward the seats in the corner. As I look at the examination table, my mind runs through some of the events of the first day, while she was doing my physical. My dick jumps to the recollection. I sit on one of the armchairs and she takes the other one.“So, Alex, our chat is very informal, it’s not part of any official ship business and I’m not taking note of what will be discussed. This is me helping another crew member when they need it. Stay assured that what we discuss will stay between each other, I would never divulge anything you say in confidence to anyone. So, feel free to say whatever you want. Are you happy with that?” she asks.“I think so. The captain will not be made aware of anything we discuss, nor it will be added to my employee record?” I ask, curious.“There will be no traces of this conversation. I need to keep a record of every crew member visiting sickbay, but as this isn’t part of my duty and we are off the clock, I don’t have to. This way, I feel that it might help you open up to our conversation if you feel like it,” she reassures me.It actually does, I’m not sure how comfortable I would be if PSS knows that I’m seeing her for a ‘How are you doing?’ chat. “Okay, sounds good to me.”“Perfect, let’s begin then. I’ll be getting right into the subject, how do you feel about the trip so far?”“I think it is fantastic, I’m feeling privileged to be here. I’ve always wanted to travel in space and here I’m doing it, so what else can I ask for,” I reply, joy in my voice.“You seem to be really proud of you, of your accomplishment. Am I right?”“I do! After I got rejected at Uni, I didn’t think that I would be going into space any time soon, but I was wrong,” I tell her, with a big smile on my face.“I remember from your file that you did Astronomical Engineering as your minor. Wouldn’t you say that you tried to increase your chances?”I think about this for a while, this is interesting. “I might have. I always thought that this was more for fun, at least to have the feeling that I was able to learn a little bit about it. Now that you mention it, it might have been a way to improve my odds, to maybe make it to the stars.” I finish, deep in thought.She leaves me to think about it for a while, but eventually decides to intervene, “I see that this makes you think a lot. Reflect on it and let me know if you want to deepen on the subject later. For now, I would like to continue to explore the present. How do you find the environment? You mentioned yesterday that you felt like you need to get out? Can you elaborate?”“Well, it’s the first time that I’m enclosed in an artificial environment for a long bahis firmaları period, so I supposed that it’s normal for me to feel that way. I don’t feel like I’m losing it, but I would like to open a window and breathe fresh air, to feel the sun’s energy on my skin. I think that’s what I’m missing the most of being planet-side.”“I understand that. When you have lived all your life on Earth, to leave it and depend on a metal box for your comfort and security, it can be difficult to accept the change. Has this caused you any problem, discomfort?”“I don’t think so. Definitely no problem, I’m sleeping well and I love the work that I’m doing. Working allows me to focus on other things, not letting me dwell too much on this. The crew also helps, distracting me from spiraling on this.” I say, glancing over the fact that I’m referring to my different encounters.“Speaking of the crew, how are you bonding with everyone?” she asks, with a soft smile.“I think it’s going well. I think that most are really friendly and has accepted me. There is Disy that I’m not yet sure though…” I tell her, a resigned smile on my face.She laughs softly at his mention. “Yes, Disy requires some getting used to. What about Akari, she speaks very fondly of you?”I look at her, my eyes wide with surprise, that she is aware. I don’t know what to reply to her.“Don’t worry, she hasn’t told me any of the juicy details,” she tells me, winking, “but it’s not difficult to see that you two have hit it off. What do you think of her?”I blush, shy that she knows about our relationship. “Uh, I really like her. I think that she is really nice, friendly, and attentive,” I reply, not sure what more to say that wouldn’t put me on the spot.“Yes, she is. I have the feeling that you know by now, but I have to make sure. Do you know why she hasn’t been intimate with you in the past few days? Has she opened up about it?” she asks, directly.Whoa, I didn’t think it would go this far. I’m getting nervous on my chair. “She did,” I reply after few seconds of silence.“What did she say specifically? As I told you the other day, I can’t divulge any medical information about her without her consent. But if I know what you know, it will be easier for me to discuss it with you,” she encourages me.I gulp before telling her, “She told me that she has her period and that she is very sick during that time of the month. She told me that it was caused by the pill?”“Yes, she really suffers about it. Not all women have this issue on the pill, but for few the symptoms are quite intense. Nothing is wrong with her, it’s just that she is affected more by what is call withdrawal symptoms. It lasts for few days in her case, then she is back to normal. You just arrived at the beginning of her time,” she explains to me.Changing tone, she softly asks me. “She also told me that she shared with you our little secret, the intimacy that we share between members of the crew?” She raises her eyebrows, curious by my reaction.I move on my seat, this is uncomfortable to discuss so openly about sex. I don’t know what to say, this is so new, so unexpected.“How do you feel about this arrangement?” she pushes further.“I don’t know… I like Akari and… I think this is fair to say even though we only know each other for four days. She explained the open relationship between the crew, saying that I’m allowed, even saying that she is happy for me to see other members for having… fun. Also telling me that she will do the same on her side. This was never a possibility in my mind, that I could have fun around while dating someone. This morning, I told her that I want to take time to think about it, that I don’t want to rush things. I don’t want to screw this up,” I confess to her, lowering my gaze.She waits a little bit before saying, “I see that it is pressing heavily on you. What you suggested to her is very good, very mature of you. But, you have a problem, why can’t you take your own advice?”Looking at her again, I frown, not understanding what she is asking. She sees my hesitation, giving me an explanation, “What I’m asking is why aren’t you giving yourself some slack, allowing you to explore with other members of the crew? You have received a clear message from Akari encouraging you to see others. I know that a few have been openly invited you into their beds. So, why aren’t you going?”With a little voice, I reply “Because I feel like I’m cheating on Akari.”“Is it that you feel guilty at having pleasure while she isn’t feeling well? Could it also be that it goes further, that you have never considered that some people have open relationships and that each partner kaçak bahis siteleri can seek sexual pleasures with others?” she asks.I think about it for a while before answering, “I think both… Maybe… I don’t know.”“Alex, let me give you a piece of advice. Akari has given you a clear go-ahead, why do you need more? If you do something that she isn’t happy with, she will tell you. You have received invitations from crew members, there isn’t anything stopping you except you. As long as you do not enter into something that you deeply do not accept or approve of, then what’s the harm?” she tells me directly, not sugar-coating it.“Isn’t my moral dilemma to go see other women of the crew enough for me to stop?” I ask.“Not necessarily. Would you be deeply rooted in monogamy, you would be repulsed by the idea of engaging in sexual activities with other women while you have a girlfriend or a wife. But I do not think this is what’s happening here. I think that you are attracted to other women while still feeling a deeper connection with Akari. So, I think that you are just overthinking the whole problem, to satisfy your moral compass.”I look at her, troubled by what she just said. The idea makes sense, but I still feel uncomfortable.After seeing that I’m not going to answer, she suggests, “Okay, let’s take the problem from a different point of view. You exposed your feelings for Akari earlier, what about Leet? Do you have sexual desires for Leet?”I think about the android, how she can electrify my dick just by touching it through my clothes. My dick hardens at the images of her running her finger over me.“Working with Leet is fantastic, she is so patient with me, fun to have a discussion with.” I simply say, avoiding the question entirely.“But, what about sexually? Do you have sexual thoughts for her? You know that she has a vagina?” she pushes further.I swallow. The conversation doesn’t go at all where I thought it would. Very hesitantly, I answer, “I know… She demonstrated some of her… gender-altering features yesterday… It’s disturbing to watch her transform herself into a man… But, I find her… attractive.”“Good. So, you would be open to have sexual experiences with her?”After a long silence, filled with the sound of my blood rushing through me, I reply very softly, almost a whisper, “Yes.”“There is no shame in admitting this, Alex. It’s normal to feel desires for other persons. What about Emma?” she asks.I breathe deeply, thinking of the encounter in the shower room. My dick continues to harden. “I would like to,” I reply, a soft smile on my face.“I sense that you already had a moment with her. Do you want to share?”I reposition on my seat, I look at the floor. “It was in the shower. She was already there when I got in. I was going to leave to let her finish, but she commanded me to stay, to not be a prude. I stayed. I took my shower. She looked at me, I looked at her.“ I laugh nervously, “I forgot my towel, so I had to walk toward her, with my dick erect. She helped me with toweling and she told me it was well…” I do not finish; too taken by the memory.“That must have been a very sexually charged experience. Did she offer any help?”“No, she had to leave. Me too. For our shifts.” I say, a little bit of disappointment in my voice.“If she offers to have an intimate moment, would you accept?”I raise my head, looking at her “I would. I like her body. I would like to feel it against me.”“Good, Alex, it’s good that you are honest with yourself. Now, let’s move to Blistas. She is Volnec, but they also have sexual needs like humans. Maybe more, their species are very open about their sexuality.”It becomes easier to discuss my feeling about the crew, I’m starting to trust Natasha. “I would and already experienced with her.”“You did? I wasn’t expecting this. Can you explained what happened?” she asks, surprise in her voice.“This is embarrassing,“ I start, shy of my action.“I’m not going to judge you, Alex, you can say anything,” she encourages me.“It was after my conversation with Akari when she told me about the crew. I was… hard from having her close to me and frustrated that we couldn’t do anything. I don’t blame her, but rather the situation.” I look her in the eyes, trying to make sure she doesn’t misunderstand what I’m saying. She simply nods, inviting me to continue. “I went for a shower and I… masturbated. After cumming, I heard Blistas. She saw everything. She joined me in the shower. I was so nervous. I looked at her, being the first naked Volnec I saw. She encouraged me to look, as long as she could see me. She then suggested we soap each other, to discover our bodies. We both did. It was… thrilling. She gave me a handjob. I came on her chest. She asked if we could get together another time, she wanted to experiment more with me. I told her I would like to,“ I finish, very softly.