Desired At Work

It all starts with a smile…. that damned smile. My heart loudly skipped a beat as his lips showed his white pearly teeth. His hand reaching out to me and his tender voice got lost as my ears rang suddenly when the blood rushed to my head. “… finally meet you,” I managed to hear him say. “Ah… yeah, same,” I said as I clumsily shook his hand.  “Sit down; Please.” He motioned toward the chair in front of his desk. “So, I reviewed your curriculum and I have to say…” The words blurred as I tried to settle my heart down. I felt my legs squirm and chills run down my arms. I’ve never believed in love at first sight. And this was definitely not it either, this was just… attraction. The next twenty minutes felt like an eternity. He was nice, affable and funny. It was both a torment and delight to be with him which made the whole interview a roller coaster of emotions.  “… can you start Monday?” he said. Then an awkward silence built in the room.  “Excuse me?” I had to pay attention. “I said, if you can start Monday.” His huge grin made me blush violently.  “I… yeah… just like that? I mean, sure… Thanks.” He gave a small quick laugh. “You are really cute when you are flustered, you know.” His words made my face burn red.  The next few minutes felt like an out-of-body experience. He explained some of the stuff I would be doing and then escorted me out. My ears were still lowly buzzing when I sat in my car. The realization of it all settling in. That’s when my phone started vibrating. I took it and answered the call almost without checking the name of the caller. “Hey, gorgeous. How did it go? Did you get it?” a man’s voice said on the phone. After a few seconds of silence, I finally answered.  “I… I got it. I got it!” I said with euphoria. “Congratulations! We’ll go out to celebrate tonight! That’s awesome; I love you so much!” Those last words güvenilir bahis stung me with guilt for a second.  “I love you too, Robert. I can’t wait to see you,” I said, and then we said our goodbyes.  I grabbed the steering wheel of my car as if that would let me get control of my own feelings. You can’t fall for your boss. You can’t. But my heart was still racing in my chest and I knew why.  On Monday. I was a bit disappointed when I arrived and someone else gave me the introductory tour to the office. Of course, the boss wouldn’t be in charge of lowly chores like that. I almost regretted spending almost two hours getting ready. Almost. “And this will be your office,” my guide said as he opened the door to a tiny office space. “I get my own office?” I said, a bit incredulous. “Of course. We deal with a lot of sensitive information and we can’t have others overhear that. It’s not much but it’s better than cubicles,” he chuckled.  “I guess so,” I said as my head already started planning about how to decorate it.  “It’ll be lunch time in a bit so, I’ll let you to yourself so you can settle in,” he said. I nodded and he closed the door behind me.  I sat down and started thinking about what I needed to buy and what I could bring from home. I had never had my own office before. That’s when I heard someone knocking on the door right before they opened it.  “Hope I’m not interrupting anything.” His voice made my heart race.  “No… not at all,” I managed to answer. “I hope you haven’t eaten lunch yet. I wanted to take you out.” My face blushed again.  “I haven’t eaten yet,” I replied. His smile made me warm and squirmy.   The lunch was incredible. A lot of my nervousness melted in between conversations. He was definitely outgoing and knew how to make someone feel comfortable around him. He made me laugh so hard I felt giddy hours later. But then something güvenilir bahis siteleri happened. “So, how do you know my mom?” I asked out of curiosity.  His face then showed a different side of him for a second. Just for a brief moment. A sparkle in his eye.  “Uhm… We are friends through some other friends.” This was the first time I’d seen him uncomfortable. My parents had a bunch of friends but I had never seen him before. That struck me as odd but I’m sure I didn’t know all of my parent’s friends.  “Your mom might be able to tell you more.” Another weird red flag.  But then he led the conversation away from that topic and the rest of the lunch was pleasant.   “So, Mom… where do you know him from?” I said and she stopped for a second.  “I… from church, I think.” She was definitely lying. “Why? did he mention something?” “No, I was just wondering.” That feeling in the bottom of my belly got weirder.  “So, are you liking the place?” She tried to change the subject. And I let her, I knew I was just being a bit paranoid.   Then time went by. I focused on work and my little office crush. We would go on lunches once in a while and I learned more about him. And the more I knew the more I fell for him. Our innocent little flirting slowly warmed up to more. We would giggle and snicker around, he would tell me how sexy and beautiful I was. It felt all so innocent and dirty at the same time. We both knew we had partners, I had a fiancé and he had a wife but we avoided talking about them. When we were together all we spoke about was us. Then it happened. We had just left the restaurant we had lunch at, he was walking me to my car in a parking lot when I felt him grab my wrist and turn me around. In a second, he was embracing me, my hands were pressing against his chest and I didn’t resist. The moment his lips touched mine I hesitated. I iddaa siteleri felt the sweet slight pressure and then… I kissed him back. My body reacted to his for a few seconds and the taste of his mouth made my heart rush. Then rationale came back to my brain and I stopped kissing him. I gently pushed him away and he let go of me.  “What’s wrong? Did I do something you didn’t like?” he spoke. “No. It’s just… I don’t…” I stuttered as I gasped for air and took a step away from him.“Did I misread the situation?” he asked again. “No… It’s just wrong. You are married and I have… you know,” I spoke.  He stopped for a second and the silence slowly grew longer. My heart still thumping hard in my chest. After we returned to the office, we both tried to ignore what had happened that day. But the awkwardness still lingered in the next days.  One time after lunch, he stopped by my office to check on the data for a client and as we spoke, he said, “I saw your mom on Sunday. She is really glad you are liking it here so much,” he said affably.  “Oh, at church, right? That’s where you guys know each other from, right?” He seemed shocked but recovered quickly.  “Oh yeah… That’s right…” He kept talking but I had stopped listening.  He was lying. I knew that because my parents had gone out on a trip that weekend. They were fond of their trips, and it was not unusual for them to go on them. They would go on road trips to different states… or so they told me. “…when you are done with the forms send them to me, please,” he finished saying in a rush.  “Yeah, of course,” I answered as he bolted out of the office.  My mind was rushing a thousand miles per hour, my heart racing. That’s when I saw it. He had left his phone in my office. Probably due to him rushing out but… could I peek? Would I do something so vile? Before I could answer my own questions, the phone was already in my hands, I swiped it to open and the numbers blocked my entry.”Shit!” I exclaimed.I tried to remember if there was some way I could guess the code. Then, a memory came back to me; from one of the times we had lunch.